She reached for Stars that were really just cheap lights

Please excuse my videos in place of a blog post. I am so busy, but life is great, hence the lack of my writing. I have yet to find what I am looking for romantically, but have come to conclusion that I am OK with that now. For the time being.
I've always given myself, willingly, in search of love. I have recently read a passage in a book and had to pause, because it reminded me of myself so much that I could have written it. Here it is (two actually):
(1) "Give me wild, soaring, indefinite, and unpredictable. That is what is real."
Now I have thought about this quote, and it is exciting, adventurous, and perhaps everything I think I am looking for. But it is these bold moves that in the end leave you hesitant to risk it all again.
(2) "She had fallen in love too hard and too wrong. Traveled far and wide to escape herself. Reached for stars that were really just cheap lights. Her longing was deep and eternal: she knew she would be searching for love until she found it."
Now of course looking for love until it satisfies you is not a crime. However, reaching for those cheap lights and pretending there are stars is. I have sold myself short too many times. Everyone says "Nothing worth it is easy." And I have learned that things that come too easy certainly are not worthy, nor what I am looking for at this point. It is the things that you have to work for, even though they seem unworthy. In the end all that hard work and patience will pay off.
I suppose I am contradicting myself from one quote to the next, but perhaps it is because I have not found my balance yet. I don't want to be reaching for those cheap lights, yet I don't want to blinded by the true stars so much that I am making wrong choices.
Until I figure it all out:
The Hopeless Romantic xox

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Here Comes the Sun!

Finally, some sunshine! Like a ray of hope! I feel with the approach of spring and the melting of the snow I am slowly waking up! And I love it! As the snow melts and the world awakes I feel I will become more alive. Like the grass and the flowers, slowly waking up, so is whatever it is that makes me the me I love. The sun seems to be melting this shell I was wearing for months. I am excited to get moving and get living!
Live Love Laugh!