Change

It's about that time of year, when the sun comes out and I feel more alive. And I realized it is this time that I try to make this big transformations and dramatically change my life. It has taken me a while to realize that I just have to be better than the person I was yesterday. I still feel like I am seeking out just my own slice of happiness and I am slowly getting there, somedays I feel like I am crawling and others a nice brisk pace, but I think what I need to remember the most is not to rush. I'll get there when I get there and sometimes the journey is half the fun. For a long time I just wanted to feel like myself, whatever version I am growing into, and the second I thought I was happy again I started looking for love right away. Although it is something I desperately want, regaurdless of my actions, I think I need to be happy just to be happy. And once again it is all about balance, I'm not about to sit back and wait for life to happen anymore for I am afraid it will just pass me by, but I need to remember everything in it's own time. There is a time for every season under the sun.