Friday, July 27, 2018
Sweet Summertime
I had this vision in my mind of taking time off finally, catching up on all my reading and writing while sipping hot coffee. Yet holidays are half over and here I am with my first posts. But that is okay, because things are different then in the past. I used to dream the days away and be surprised when the seasons had changed yet again.
Now I am living, the days are flying because I am chasing them. Chasing the waves, the sunsets & stars. Breaking new trails and enjoying summer how I always imagined. I am not going anywhere far on my time off, but enjoying everything within reach. The happiness recently found has lasted longer than any other, and I am no longer worried about jinxing myself. I still feel a little anxious stepping out of my comfort zone, but at the end of the day I am tired and happy.
Now I am living, the days are flying because I am chasing them. Chasing the waves, the sunsets & stars. Breaking new trails and enjoying summer how I always imagined. I am not going anywhere far on my time off, but enjoying everything within reach. The happiness recently found has lasted longer than any other, and I am no longer worried about jinxing myself. I still feel a little anxious stepping out of my comfort zone, but at the end of the day I am tired and happy.
Mind & Body
If you know me at all, then you may be familiar with my battle/journey with depression. It has been the focus of my health the last few years. However in the process of taking care of my mind, my body has suffered. From medications, to constant grogginess, body aches & PCOS, I let the tiredness take over.
I have discovered a new found energy lately, and have started a new journey. It is time to take care of myself as whole, vs in pieces. It seems to be the balance I was looking for, or the piece I was missing. I am hoping this continues. I was hesitant to post about it as I have struggled with this in the past. But for the first time in my life I took time off, time to myself, which has allowed me to focus more. It isn't as smooth as I was hoping, but if depression has taught me one thing, it is to keep going.
Luckily I never really lost confidence along the way, I know my worth deep down, and still had this vision of myself in my mind that I was happy with. Time to dig that worth out from deep down and bring it to the surface. May this challenge go well, may I be kind on myself when it doesn't, & hopefully learn a whole bunch a new recipes along the way!
I have discovered a new found energy lately, and have started a new journey. It is time to take care of myself as whole, vs in pieces. It seems to be the balance I was looking for, or the piece I was missing. I am hoping this continues. I was hesitant to post about it as I have struggled with this in the past. But for the first time in my life I took time off, time to myself, which has allowed me to focus more. It isn't as smooth as I was hoping, but if depression has taught me one thing, it is to keep going.
Luckily I never really lost confidence along the way, I know my worth deep down, and still had this vision of myself in my mind that I was happy with. Time to dig that worth out from deep down and bring it to the surface. May this challenge go well, may I be kind on myself when it doesn't, & hopefully learn a whole bunch a new recipes along the way!
Tuesday, July 3, 2018
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