Blue or Pink?

 Twinkle twinkle little star, how we wonder what you are! We are patiently counting the hours now, until we find out if our little Bambino will be boy or girl! 

These past five months have flew by, but not because it's been a breeze. Performing life's greatest miracle is a lot of work! The energy it takes to grow this life, is drained directly from you (possibly the brain as I learned baby brain is a real thing). I feel like I have been sea sick for a majority of the past five months, tired beyond belief, and in the moments and days I find some relief and energy I basically get as much done as I can while it lasts, until I am exhausted. But of course, the love overcomes all and you tough it out, which I guess is my mother instincts kicking in. However I would welcome a period of relief before lugging this belly around becomes a huge chore.

Now comes the fun stuff, Finding out, nursey decorating, registry planning, looking at outfits! Although I am extremely proud of my career and the direction it has taken these past few years, being a Mama is something I have always longed for. I know it won't be a walk in the park, but I am so looking forward to taking that year and just enjoying the life we created, soaking in all the moments and making memories.

May the next five months past as quickly as the rest as we wait for our Summer Babe xo

Happily Ever After

 2020, the year the world fell apart was the year my world came together. It was as if all roads travelled led here, and I feel I can rest. I feel safe, calm and content. The seeds sown over the years have bloomed and provided a good life, and it grows as does my belly! I haven`t had any concerns or anxieties about the next step, as if this is what I have always been waiting for, made for. I have visions of baby cheeks and wedding bells dancing in my head, and the sweet life that will follow. I thought we had it all these past few months holed up together with our fur babies, and now we have so much more to look forward to. Cheers to love, laughter & happily ever after xo

Miss to Mrs.

 

Oh Baby

 I don't even think I can count all the blessings that life has brought me over the past 18 months. Among those is life's biggest blessing, a baby! I cannot even express how this makes me feel as I still cannot fathom that the one thing I have always wanted is upon us. The news hit me hard like a brick, as I stared at the lines forming in front of me (all six times)!! For the first time I am almost at a loss for words, I cannot say how long I have dreamed of this, or can hardly imagine how much this little being will change our lives. The love I already feel is unbearable, for I am already a mother. Such a great joy to share with our families, especially after heart ache and grief. I see the love these people feel for what is growing inside of me, and after years of loving and taking care of children it is finally my turn. 

You are already so loved little one, and your Papi and I cannot wait to see what the coming months and years bring for us and our little family we are starting. Dreams do come true xo

Baby on Board!

 

The way that we Love in the Night gave me Life, Baby I can't Explain

May the Light Guide your Way

“A limb has fallen from our family tree,

That says not grieve for me,

Remember the best times, the laughter, the song,

The good life I lived when I was strong”.

May your soul finally find peace

May no family ever have to justify their reason to grieve. Lost souls still have many hearts who love them, that broke every time they lost their way and always hoped for a new day. Death is so final, with no chance of change.

May you always find compassion for others in life’s dark moments.