Confessions of the Hopeless Romantic

Tuesday, July 4, 2017

Atoned

Week 18 - Atoned

You could have heard my heart break
Across the five Great Lakes

As the salty tears consumed me
I thought I would drown in their sea

I thought that break would end me
Instead it set me free

Though the heartbreak caused an echo
The healing was more subtle

I can't say when the tears stopped
Or when he left my thoughts

But this heart is fully healed
And so full of good feels

I tried so hard to move on and yet it happened on its own
The love I gave away has been recovered and atoned

Tuesday, June 27, 2017

Dreams

There is always a reason when I am not writing, but this time it was different. I didn't want to repeat past sentiments that I still carry with me. The constant battle of fighting my highs and mostly lows. The lows are so sad after riding a wave of happiness for a few weeks, you wonder how you got back to this place again. So I avoid writing so I don't have confront the battle that is always waging. I am always tired, and mostly numb, but I appreciate the moments of peace and contentment. It doesn't take much to make me happy anymore, and that makes it easier to grab those moments as they pass me by.

I realized lately how much time has passed me by and it makes me love those precious moments I am able to savor. I've made a life for myself, and everything is at my finger tips to enjoy it. It may be a bit of work, but nothing worth it is easy and although I have always chosen the longer or difficult path I am proud when I arrive, because I did it my own way and in my own time.

I could dream my life away if someone would let me, but the more dreams I discover as the old ones drift away, the more I want to bring them to life. The passion is always there, searching for the energy to ignite that passion is my next fight. I've always been a fighter xo