Those of you who read this (all three of you :p) may not know the cynical side of me, mostly because all I talk about is love and what I want. However, there is what I am afraid of well. Unrequited love, broken hearts, tears. I always say everything is a lesson and jump right in, but really I am terrified no one will catch me, and it will just be another failed attempt on my part. Although I suppose you could say every failure is just a step towards success. But I don't always have that optimistic outlook. Hence my cynicism. Those who know good and see me everyday and know about my weekend adventures and know the rules. No cuddling, no sleepover, and no promises. People think I say this because it's truly what I want, but I say it because it's my safety net, my way of not getting hurt. No soft caresses and smiles in the morning help fend off falling for you. It's dangerous territory and I'm afraid. I suppose rules are meant to be broken, I just hope my heart isn't.
The Hopeless Romantic xox
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it's okay to be cynical - look where it's gotten me. just know when to tare the safety net down, that's the trick. i love you, and i can't say I'll catch you - but I will certainly help you pick up the pieces if it comes to that
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