Above all else, to thine own self be true

Oh to have it all, everything that we so desire. Then to realize having it all means taking the risk of loosing it all. Of course I've always said, take chances, dive straight in, it's better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all. I think it's easier saying all that before you've had a loss. It's harder to risk it all knowing what might come out of it, or what might not. All this time we spend waiting for what we wanted, and when it is presented to us, or in our grasp is when we start to doubt, and second guess ourselves. Meanwhile somewhere inside of us is screaming "wake-up asshole, this is what you want". While the devil on our shoulder (or the angel, depending) is saying, "you always do this, you push push push, and push them away". (Or pull away its a give and take sometimes.) I've heard our biggest enemies can be ourselves, and how true sometimes. It always seems those who know us best have the ability to hurt us the most, and who know you better than yourself. Our biggest judges, doubters and haters.. our own selves.
But then again we can also be our biggest fans. Love yourself first, and others will come. Shakespeare said "Above all else, to thine own self be true".
Maybe that is what I will work on in 2011, life is going so good, time to love myself, allowing the rest of the love to flow in. I also plan on getting really sexy, so look out 2011.
Until then,
The Hopeless Romantic xox

Last drink served, real life coming up

Ok, Ok! I haven't blogged for a month. I've had a couple ideas, wrote them down and never elaborated. But these days I have some free time (a lot until January 3rd) and then maybe a little more, since I am only down to one job. Something for me that hasn't been done in years. And maybe something that should have been done a lot sooner. I no longer needed to bar tend, that's a fact, it certainly wasn't worth the time or the money, but I loved my boss. I think for me a small part of it was holding on to my old life. When I did what I want when I please. A time when it was always late nights, late mornings and not really having a direction in a life. My drifting period of figuring my life out. Letting go of this stage completely was a step towards growing up, realizing you are on the path you want to be. It's time to embrace that path, nourish and concentrate on it to make sure that you allow the goals you have achieved to grow. Allowing new goals to come into light making your journey challenging and exciting. It's a blessing to be doing what you love, but now I need to make sure I stay loving it, create something more out of what I have been offered, prove I am doing what I need to be doing.
A year ago I never would have thought I would be in the place, the opportunity literally fell into my lap, and although initially I was scared I also realized I had let my fear too many times stop me from previous dreams, that this time I was going to seize the moment. I am so glad I did. I am so glad I am where I am. Now it's time to take it a little farther. Achieve some more things I have been putting off for sometime. I'll keep you posted on how that goes, I don't want to jinx anything yet.
Until the,
The Hopeless Romantic xox