In the depth of winter I found within me lays an eternal summer

Still carrying with me the winter funk I try to remind myself of the time of year when I feel most alive. Try to invoke the sun into my thought process and spirit. I am so ready to feel alive again, not drudge through each day hoping to wake up and find the sunlight that warms my soul. Time to light that fire and let the warmth begin. I can feel the love start flowing again. Not towards any person, but just in general. I have rediscovered my love for reading for hours, and for the first time the love of a hot shower. I have always showered for necessity. I have be marveled at for my ability to shower fast, but recently i have showered for the love of feeling the hot water run over me, perhaps in its own way warming my soul. Just little things, simple joys have reminded me to let the love flow all the time, not just when the time is right. Maybe in this simplicity I will find love being drawn to me, or myself being drawn to it.
Hot showers and books.. maybe I am truly hopeless.

Happy Valentines!

Ahh, the day of love is upon us. I painted my nails, wore red with a flower in my hair, ate chocolates and handed out my cards. I smiled and told everyone I saw Happy Valentine's. I am a sucker for any Holiday, this being one of my favorite being the hopeless romantic I am, also red is my favorite color so I really got to flaunt it. But, my heart wasn't in it as always, but I still enjoy any day that celebrates love, not so much the commercial aspect which people can get a hate on for, but just the idea in general! I can't wait until i can revel in the light of someone else's love for me, not just one day a year, but everyday. Even though sometimes it feels like I might never find that, when I do actually think about it, it makes me smile.
Although lately I have been surrounded by a lot of negativity when it comes to love, I refuse to let that change my view on true love. Here is my favorite love quote. It happens to be from the bible and you have probably heard it at every wedding you have even been too, but I feel in love with it before I knew that. Someone bought my a journal with bible verses in it for inspiration and there it was, this is what I want some day.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails "
Until I find that I suppose I am still hopeless :)
Happy Valentine's Day! xox

Winter Funk

Time to ditch this winter funk I am stuck in. Where all I want to do is curl up and chill.. every day ALL day!! I am engulfed by this sluggish feeling of BLAH! I need to move, need to think, need to smile!! I can already feel myself slowly coming out of it (thank goodness) but I really got to push it now! My weight-loss goal has been deterred, I need to get on track and get moving! I think some fresh air will do me good and besides I got a wedding to look sexy for, and time is creeping up fast! I need some motivation and inspiration, if I need to provide it for myself then so be it. Here I go, wish me luck!