My goodness, turning over a new leaf is hard work! I now can see a reason why I have made so many bad choices ruled by bad taste. Bad is easy, sticking to your guns, that is hard work. Everything that is worth it is hard, and sometimes life is just hard. Coming to terms with that instead of fighting it might make it a little less exhausting, and in a way a little easier. You just need to learn to channel your energy towards rolling with the punches.
Don't settle for the easy and the bad. Save yourself the hangover of regret, the realization that you have been stupid once again and it wasn't any different than before. Sure not giving into to what you want feels like it really sucks, but staying true to what you want has gotta feel better in the end. By taking a step back, and asking yourself what you really want out of something, you may see that the situation is  not really offering you that. Even though you feel strongly like this is something you want. I deserve better than just settling. Saying no to situations like that is showing that I am better and want better. If I keep that in mind I think "better" just might find me. Baby steps in a the right direction is better than standing still.

Life is a journey, not a destination

Betty Boop knew what was up

Making healthy habits

Cheers to keeping the new years resoltions alive :) Ready for the week!!

RED

Right after that post I got inspired with my camera. There is a local facebook group called: Community Click It, and this months theme was "RED". So cheers to getting inspired.. what a good feeling! I need to make sure I can experience this as much as possible!

Update

My resolutions have been going so-so. I've been doing the healthy thing and have seen some good results. Now it is time to take the next step, find the physical activity I really like doing. I have taken some initiative and picked up a couple dance videos. So this is going good, I just need to remember, the difference between try and triumph is a little ommf!  I am also doing really well in school, which I think is one of the most important things.

As for guitar I have watched some tutorials and thought about what songs I would like to learn, I just have yet to pick one up, this area needs the most works. As for photography, besides nights out my camera has not seen much action, so there is something I need to get moving on.

Be strong. I think this is going well, although sometimes life throws you things and being strong is exhausting. I am doing good on the outside, at work and at school, now I just need to make the times in between a bit more enjoyable, perhaps with guitar and photography. The sunshine has been helping lately, but we have also been thrown a couple harsh blows these last couple weeks. I just need to remember not to let the blows set me back and put up a road block on the road I am travelling.

I feel like the winter blues have gone into full effect, but I also think I was expecting it. As I grow older I can see the pattern of it, predict it like the weather, and like the weather I can never seem to control it. But I hear myself reassuring myself.. this always happens, you are going to be fine, wait until the spring. I think having these goals and reminding myself of what I want is a good distraction from the blues. I want that distraction, I want to do these things to make me the person who is always smiling and always wanting more from life.

Not so hopeless, not so romantic