If I didn't know better, but dammit I do

It's funny, when it comes to things like riding a bike it's like no time has passed. But I don't think I will ever get uesd to being taken aback when someone moves me. Even if it happened all the time, which it doesn't, because I have taken, maybe not so careful but perhaps reckless, steps to ensure I was never caught off gaurd. Stayed away from the edge to ensure I would never fall. After all, if someone can take your breath away by making you happy, what would happen when they made you sad. The problem with falling is it always happens so fast. Hopefully I can take everything I learned along the reckless path to pave a smoother one. I don't know if "hot headed" is the right word but I have always seemed to be a act first, think later type of person. Although few and far between I have been known to explode in anger, break down in tears, and not only fall but jump in head first. So now maybe I think I can dig my heels in a bit, cool my jets. Take in that initial reaction to things and let it simmer. Apparently those thoughts once I have cooled are much more rational and sensible. Although a part of me just want to let an explosion emplode and see what happnes, most of me knows better.