Love at Third Sight

You did not have me at hello,

It was not love at first glance,

You move me at a deeper level,

I am so glad I took a chance.

You awaken my forgotten dreams,

And remind me of my best parts,

Near or far I am loving you,

And I know I am in your heart.

This love started like a whisper in my ear,

And quickly grew into a roaring shout,

Something so new yet familiar and sweet,

I am finding fewer fears and doubts.

True, you did not have me at hello,

Yet I feel we will not part,

A love like this was worth the wait,

And has taken over my whole heart.

For the first time in such a long long time I know, I'll be ok

Good Hands

Head Over Feet

They always say that you will find love when you are not looking. I think I have been looking for love my whole life. Even in the darkest of days, love was in the back of my mind. So even though all this time I have been looking, I recently just realized I was looking for you. So maybe the idea of love finding you when you least expect it is true, and after everything else I have experienced I didn't see us blooming into this. I thought I knew what I wanted and what I was looking for and then you came along and redefined my wants and needs. For the first time in a long time I knocked the walls down around me and fully opened myself to someone else. I am not afraid of loosing you and I am not ashamed of who I have been, I simply take comfort in the fact that I am yours. I am happy to have finally found a love that is patient and kind. I am happy I found you. 

Lucky

Sooner or later in life the things you love you loose, You've got the love to see me though

I always felt so blessed to grow up with an abundance of Grandparents. 4 Great Grandparents and 4 Grandparents. With one left I have found the down side to growing up with grandparents is loosing them. And I did not just see them occasionally or on holidays, I grew up with them on either side. At every event, important moments, unimportant ones. Literally each one a street away.

I grieve the losses, I grieve for the part of my life you will miss, me actually becoming an adult, falling in love, seeing who I will finally choose to be mine after all this time of all of you wondering and teasing, having children. I so wanted to share that with all of you as you have shared your lives with me. I wanted my children to grow up the way I have and have all you amazing people in their lives. But having you and loosing you is better than never having you at all. At least when the time come I can give what pieces of you are in me.

The benefit of growing side by side is your roots will always be entangled. The love from all these different people have taught me to love the way I do. Through all the sadness I have endured the one thing I have not lost is love. The love of my family, my very amazing friends, the idea of love, it is something I have kept close to my heart while my mind sorted out everything else. And it is this love I have that will shine through when my heart feels heavy with grief and missing you. It is the love that survives in the family you all have built, you can feel it in our hugs and grasping hands, see it in our smiles, hear it in our laughs. If I believe anything anymore, its that love will see me though. So thank you for sharing your loving hearts with me, I promise to make sure that love continues to grow.