I woke up with a heavy heart, followed by heavy tears. I was about to write it off as just another horrible day until I remembered what day it really was. The day you left us. Summer will now always hold a slight sadness of missing you but today I am drowning in it. I cannot find comfort in others for I am afraid of dragging them down into my melancholy. I cannot visit you where you lay now or mourn in the church where I had to say my final good bye. Yet I feel anxious and guilty I cannot do these things to make everyone else happy. I cannot find you there because you are with me and I can only miss you the way I know how to. I know I feel thing so much deeper than most, but I've learned I cannot change that. May you rest in peace and eventually maybe I can find mine here.
Until we meet again.
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