Checking that phone...

I can hardly remember the last time I had a crush that made me feel giddy. I've been with people for convenience or lust, or because I thought it was the right thing to do. But to have that feeling for someone you have not been intimate with, but only daydream about, is an excitement I haven't felt in a long time. I have no idea where it could head, if anywhere at all, but it's good to feel so alive again, to be hoping and daydreaming.

I remember a few years back, being a situation because I thought it was the grown-up thing to do, try and domesticate myself. I also remember having a moment of realization I may not feel that giddy-ness again, and I certainly did not for the person I was with. The sad part is I was ready to accept that. Thankfully fate had other ideas, more life for me to live, and feelings to feel. Feelings that have my checking my phone every few minutes... gah, my thirty-year-old butt feels a little silly with this crush, silly and smiley.