To say past experiences have jaded my once hopeless romantic attitude is an under statement. I used to believe that I would meet someone and I would just know, but as years passed I brushed it off as a silly notion. But perhaps it isn't. Something has stirred in me that I cannot shake off, it has all the energy of school girl excitement, yet an understanding that it is something real. Never have I not questioned the start of something new, doubted or worried. In the past I would have to convince myself someone was a good match for me, nothing felt sure, like waiting for the other shoe to drop. But here there are no shoes, it is barefoot and natural, it feels easy and right.
Suddenly it makes sense why no one else had worked out, no matter how hard I tried. Suddenly it doesn't matter who has broken my heart or left behind scars, it just beats so happily as if this is what it has been waiting for. If love at first sight isn't real, then love at first smile is. Love at first laugh, first kiss, first simple brush across your cheek. Love when you least expect it. When I think of all the big and small decisions that have led me here I can't help but think of fate, I finally found the inner happiness I have been longing for and outer happiness began to follow.
Embracing change and new challenges, saying yes when I would have said no, taking a chance even when it is scary... I used to have the mindset of holding back in case I might get hurt, but at this point in time I feel like I cannot not go for it, regardless of how it will end. I have a gut feeling this is a chance I can not miss and faith that it will be worth it.
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