Lucky

I don't know how I got so lucky, or when we slipped into this easy groove of life together. Though it has been such a short time, I cannot imagine it any other way. I long for him to hold me, where others simply felt they were squeezing the life out of me. And boy let me tell you, he holds me, he holds me like tomorrow isn't promised, like I belong to him and no other. Sometimes we are so wrapped up in each other I cannot help but think of us a Celtic knot, ever intertwined. His laid back island attitude is the calm in my storm, his touch melts my tension and anxiety away. He takes care of me in a way I didn't know I needed, gourmet food, unconditional love, and tolerance and patience for my wild and crazy dog.

I have always cherished my own home, like a sacred space I didn't want penetrated by any other. But this house has become his and it feels a little empty when he is gone. I cherish our morning coffee together, and enjoy our home cooked meals together (especially during this crazy time). I respect the fact that after a hard day to tells me to have a bath with some wine while he cooks us steak. Like I said, I don't know how I got so lucky, but I am ever thankful I didn't settle, missing this would be my biggest regret.

You will find him next to me

Lost & Found

Someone said to me the other day, "Isn't it crazy how much life can change in a year?" Yes, yes it is. These past 8 months have brought so much my way, as if my good karma has kicked in ten-fold. If you would have told me a year ago I would have everything I did now, I would have doubted you. Everything I have, I have worked so hard for and it is as if suddenly the road ahead is smooth. I can see in the horizon what I have been waiting for. A house to call a home, a love that takes my breath away, a life full of blessings.

My soul and heart are awakened. There was a time when I wasn't sure if I could ever love like I did before I knew what hurt was. That starry eyed teenager that found meaning in every love song, wishes in the stars, a caring for someone that is more than myself. I may do what I want, but I want to do everything for this person. He moves me in a way I was not aware of, like a seed that had been dormant in the winter and is now blooming into something more beautiful than imagined.

I have never been more certain, though I haven't known him long, I know his heart. I have never been more sure of anything, which is something I would have previously always doubted. There is no convincing, or second guessing, just the knowledge that things are as they should be.