Her love for him ain't cheap

Hear my Sinners Prayer, I am what I am, I don't want to break the heart of any man but you, but you.

Walking on wires & power lines

Falling

When I think about meeting someone new, of course the thought of how far it will go always crosses my mind. When I think about the few times I have really fallen, in the end no one was ever there to catch me. The first few falls were tragic, I crashed and broke into a million pieces, turns out I suck at puzzles. After that you think something so broken would break easily again next time. However, the last time I fell, I didn't seem to crash as hard, and there were not a million pieces to pick up. Was the last love not as deep as the others, was my heart now stronger and more durable? Or am I unable to love like the first time, knowing what has always followed. In the end I have always been left with tears in my eyes, my heart in my hands, begging for a second chance. I don't want to be there again.

With every new love, or the possibility of it, comes a list of new risks. The risk feels scarier and bigger. How many chances have I missed because I was scared, or how much time have I wasted because someone felt safe? When it comes down to it, I want something wild and passionate, longing and desperate. I have never longed for someone who I could cook dinner for or watch a movie with, but someone who inspires passion in me, helps me live a more meaningful and colorful life. I suppose if  I put it out there into the universe enough and start living the life I truly want I will eventually attract that energy. However, I am growing restless and lonely again, my arms feel empty and I crave another human.

May I not make any more bad choices based on loneliness.

If you are going to insist on reading......

And I know that you are, (ahem stalker) then I cannot resist taking a stab at you once in a while!

Heaven help the fool who falls in love

Good Morning Sunshine, I can't resist

Gimme some lovin early in the morning
I just woke up with this appetite
Come on, give me love in the morning light
gimme some lovin early in the morning
I just woke up with this appetite
Come on, give me love in the morning light
some people like it in the afternoon
I don't think that I can wait that soon
Come on, give me love in the morning light
some people like it in late at night
I could wait that long, but I don't think I might
Come on, give me love in the morning light
I'm going to love you soft and love you sweet
I can feel your heartbeat
Need your attention to get me started right
I'm going to wake you up with a kiss on the cheek
Come a little closer, open up to me
Good morning babe, good morning babe
open your eyes just a little bit
Good morning sunshine, I can't resist
Dreaming about you babe, all through the night

Resolutions

The last two New Years I have made resolutions with a check list for each month, and worked my way towards happiness. Or at least tried to have a goal, no matter how small, in mind to keep me afloat when the world weighed me down. I wanted to laugh more, sing more, write more, give back more. For the first time in years I feel happiness that lasts for days at time, so instead of making a checklist I am just going to be. I am going to enjoy this new found joy and see where it leads me. I am going to say yes more, move more, see more, be more. In a year of more, I hope to find less sadness, less heavy hearts, and less loneliness.

May happiness keep me on track this year.