Today mental illness is on everyone's mind, followed by a hashtag making it trendy. I try to share my story and my struggle everyday, not for sympathy or for an excuse but to help end the stigma, and to let others know I am always here. In the depth of winter I feel my burden more heavy than before, it actually causes me physical pain. I feel sick, my slumber is never long enough, my work days are too long and my breaks are too short, my to do list is too long, and my soul is too tired. I want to cry out, but I fear to response from people who don't really understand. I can't get up, get out and perk up. I know all the things that are good for me, knowing them and being unable to help yourself is even worse than feeling sad all the time, now I am plagued with guilt and blame.
All I can do is fight, I may struggle to get out of bed, yet I somehow make it through every day. So I will continue to do so, and hopefully find a little joy, sunshine and release along the way. Someone mentioned recently how much they enjoyed my 100 Happy Days Challenge in the past, so I am challenging myself again... 100 Happy Days Challenge - Self Care Addition. Wish me luck.
