Questions....

How do you know when someone who has wronged you has done enough to be forgiven. When is it time to let go? Or if you have let go and moved on, then is all not forgiven? After all it is almost forgotten.
If you give the wrong-doer in question another shot than is it your fault if it ends up being a re-run of the last time? You are certainly the one left looking stupid. "Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me." Or, break my heart and I will break your face. Oh wait, I'm trying not to be that tough single girl anymore. Although a smart single girls is better than an being a fool. Although I have had a lot of fun being foolish. But I suppose eventually the fun will wear out..... one day. I am not looking to any answers to these questions, I was simply just putting it out there.

Lie to me and hold me close Tell me that you love me even though you don't The rule is don't you ever even talk about Forever but you never say never

Room for Improvement

As much as I write what I want, who I think I am and who I want to be, there are times when that just flys out the window. I have a feeling (okay, I know) that I constantly give off the "eternally-single" vibe. Which I do not want. Hopefully I have only done this because I would rather be single then with the people I have met, but what if the right one comes along and I miss out on it because I am so confortable in my bachlorette-mode that they write me off. I have thought about this before but have time and time again realized things I have said or done only condridict what I am truly after. I guess I have to work a little harder and make some changes, and shut my big mouth once in a while.
That's the other thing.. I'm a: "too loud, challenging, beer-drinking, cigar-smoking bachorlette" As it was kindly point out by my mother. She says she hopes I drop that soon, or not act like that around someone I really like. As much as I would like to chalk it up to the fact that I haven't met that person yet I do need to start working on some etiquette and lady-likeness. Because old habits die hard and it might be too late soon. Time to peel away this protective layer, my proud single girl attitude to make room for something more.
Wish me luck, I know I am going to need it this time!
The Hopeless Romantic xox

In the heat of the summer sunshine....

I think this burst of sun has my mind leaping towards summer thoughts. Or perhaps leaping back. If I close my eyes and let the sun beat down on m I can live in my memory for a moment. I was recently watching something where I heard that "Memories can live on as long as we are alive". So I will from time to time, because there are although there are few good ones, the good ones are oh so good.

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In the Summertime

A summer love is unlike the rest
A summer heart beats wildly in my chest
The days are longer
And love in stronger
In the summertime

A summer love can start so fast
Knowing that summer love can not last
So I will love all I can in that short time
With the one I call mine
In the summertime

A summer love can get hotter than the sun
Discovering passions as fiery as blood runs
Devouring each moment before the autumn chill
Because I can only seem to find that thrill
In the summertime

However this summer heart seems to beat all year
And I wish my summer love was here
What I wouldn’t give for a summers kiss
And all the other things I miss
About the summertime
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So until the summertime... The Hopeless Romantic xox

Lonelily

Life is great, and busy, and fun! Then I slow down for a second and remember that I am lonely. Not in a bad way, just alone. I suspect if I ever do fall in love, this blog will cease, because I won’t want to spend a minute describing how good things are because I will be living and loving it. So be thankful, as a blog reader it hasn’t happened yet, even though I am not a faithful blogger these days.
Back to being lonely, it’s the moments when I see a couple share that smile, the one that says you want each other, in more ways than one. A gentle embrace that you don’t have to think about, it just happens because your bodies want it to. Sometimes I forget about those little moments because I have gone so long without them. Then I see those moments shared between people and I remember that I long for that. I long for someone to want me, and be there when I want them. Someone to smile at and know they are thinking or feeling the same thing as me.
Last blog I said nothing worth it was easy. And of course sometimes easy is just fun, but nothing like fun and easy encounters to remind you that what you really want and tough and worth it. And I’ve learned that that theory applies to a lot more in life than just love. I have been trying to become the best me I know how lately. But some days I think why bother? I want to give up, but achieving this is just one step towards where I want to end up. And hopefully once I arrive there I can start to get the other things I desire. Like someone to share that special smile with.
Until then,
The Hopeless Romantic xox
Ps.. I’m not feeling so hopeless these day, with improvement as my main focus, in the backdrop I just feel like good things are about to happen, I will embrace them with open arms!