Lonelily

Life is great, and busy, and fun! Then I slow down for a second and remember that I am lonely. Not in a bad way, just alone. I suspect if I ever do fall in love, this blog will cease, because I won’t want to spend a minute describing how good things are because I will be living and loving it. So be thankful, as a blog reader it hasn’t happened yet, even though I am not a faithful blogger these days.
Back to being lonely, it’s the moments when I see a couple share that smile, the one that says you want each other, in more ways than one. A gentle embrace that you don’t have to think about, it just happens because your bodies want it to. Sometimes I forget about those little moments because I have gone so long without them. Then I see those moments shared between people and I remember that I long for that. I long for someone to want me, and be there when I want them. Someone to smile at and know they are thinking or feeling the same thing as me.
Last blog I said nothing worth it was easy. And of course sometimes easy is just fun, but nothing like fun and easy encounters to remind you that what you really want and tough and worth it. And I’ve learned that that theory applies to a lot more in life than just love. I have been trying to become the best me I know how lately. But some days I think why bother? I want to give up, but achieving this is just one step towards where I want to end up. And hopefully once I arrive there I can start to get the other things I desire. Like someone to share that special smile with.
Until then,
The Hopeless Romantic xox
Ps.. I’m not feeling so hopeless these day, with improvement as my main focus, in the backdrop I just feel like good things are about to happen, I will embrace them with open arms!