Lonely Days

90% of the time I am fabulous. But that other sneaky 10% is killing me. I try to muster up as much grace as I have and carry on because I dare not tell anyone I still cry for you. I sometimes miss being wrapped up in you, and I am filled with much more lonliness then I experienced before. Before I didn't know what it was like to love you, but now that I have and can no longer do so, the loneliness bears down much heavier than it ever has. I've already made a fool of myself when it comes to this matter of the heart and I am determined never to do that again, but it doesn't stop it from replaying in my mind. I mostly feel like I am ready to love again, but on days like today I miss our love.