Feel & Heal

I think I have felt more in the past 8 months, than 8 years. Although it has been a lot, I would rather experience and process my emotions than just going through the motions of life. No one is harder on me than myself. I imagined a different life for myself by 32, but I need to look at where I am, how I got here and be proud.

Lately I have had a yearning for a partner, I have always enjoyed my lifestyle, yet in the big place I have now it feels a little empty. I want someone to lean on, rely on, take out the damn trash! I've been dating over the past year and although I am accustomed to it, it really is a strange time to be a single woman who just wants something normal. I have friends who found their significant others before the age of swiping right, so it does make for a few good stories.

I sometimes fear judging a book by it's cover and missing all the good stuff inside. When I think about what I thought about my life and how different it turned out, I think I need to do that with people too. If I just think about what I want on paper I may be closing some doors, who knows, I may find a gem going off script. So I am putting it in the universe, and myself out there, more open and taking more chances.

I have enjoyed being independent and self reliant, and I will always be proud I took care of myself for so long, but I am ready to take care of someone else too xo