Que Sera Sera

I mentioned earlier how Spring truly felt like a rebirth. As I reflect back I breath a sigh of relief. Someone so near and dear to me had a health scare, the kind where the C word was being thrown around. I didn't allow myself to even think about it, I did no research, refused to google anything or let my mind wander to the what ifs. When the good news finally came this week all those thoughts I blocked out came flooding back. I was so relieved, but finally realized how severe the outcome could have been. She is okay, she is going to be okay, we are so lucky.

In the midst of this, a little love in our life was hospitalized with a life time condition, we almost lost one of our beloved pups in a freak accident, and experienced some major trauma with a troubled loved one. I don't think I breathed properly for a month, un-tensed my muscles, or un-clenched my jaw or fists. When I got to the ocean I finally let go and cried, whatever will be will be.

As I said she is okay, our little love a managing, our pup is short a tail but back to her old self, and as for those who are troubled, you can't help them until they help them self. I can't carry the worry of everyone else on me. Reflecting back I can see why I felt the need to slip into a slump and stay there, but I am stronger than that now. This life is my life and it is what I make it. I am making it my own.