You Look Happy

I don't think I can put into words how wonderful and how beneficial this move has been for me. Even over long periods of happiness that nagging sadness was always edging in, stealing time through naps, or weekends spent alone. I have been busier than ever, too busy to even realize I have completely begun a new. New house, new job, new people, new children. The challenge seemed too daunting at first, but I didn't really give myself a chance to think about it. From the day of the job offer, I had two weeks to wrap up my life in Nipigon and start a new. 

Things have finally settled in, and it has hit me that Nipigon is no longer my home. I wasn't home sick until the anniversary of a love one's death date, but a few quick visits home cured me up and reassured me I had made the right choice for my career, mental health and personal relationships. Leaving those I loved dearly was hard, but they will always love me. Meeting new people, truly loving myself and to find someone special will be worth starting over.

I always thought that even when I reached the level of happiness I have been craving, I would never be my old self again, gosh its probably been at 10-12 years since I really felt that way. But yet I do. They say happiness makes you look different, I think it makes me look beautiful xo