It's just a bad day, not a bad life

Recently I was admiring how I have been managing COVID-19 and all the work that comes with it. As someone who has struggled in the past I have been insistent on ensuring I didn't fall down a slippery slope when it comes to my Mental Health. Some days it feels like everyone needs something from me and I don't have much more to give.

While I have been managing my anxiety some days I am merely putting it up with it others, not decompressing and relaxing. The stress I carry has shown up in some medical results lately which was an eye opener on just how much mental health impacts your physical health. I may have put some things off too long because of the worry COVID may be putting on the health system, but my health is important too if I am going to continue to manage and strive during this uncertain time.

I will take my full lunch break, I will mind my sleeping and eating habits, I will let my boyfriend love and appreciate me. I will make time for myself, for my relationship and my family, even if it is at a distance. There are things that are beyond my control and I need to accept that, my heart can break for those situations, but I cannot let my own heart break in the process for other people need me.

I had an awful day Monday, a day that felt like when my depression takes control. But it turned out to just be one day and on Tuesday I felt better, and today I am rocking it. I am so glad I have reached a point where I can say, it's just a bad day... not a bad life. It's not a bad life at all, and I will do what I can to keep it that way xo