Resiliant

Never have I been under more pressure, or felt more professional stress. Yet, never have I thrived so much in uncertain times. I have been blessed to continue to not only work, but provide an essential service to front line workers. We are stressed, concerned, sometimes scared, yet we are the sunshine and safe place for the children in our care. I am proud and humbled of our team during this time.

I am also proud and humbled by own resilience during this time, even when working from home. I woke up, made my bed, made up myself. During self-isolation my professional stress was used as an outlet, the house is spotless, meals cooked, yard maintained, houseplants thriving. I read every book in the house, caught up on the documentaries I've been saving. Never once have I wavered thinking I may slip into depression or lack motivation. Such a strange thing to strive in uncertain times but it keeps me sane.

The support I find at home is so comforting. During this time horrifying news was received and a car accident added extra stress and anxiety as the world began to shut down. I miss my family more than I can say and some times it feels like a video call is not enough. But I am not alone, and for the first time I do not want to be. Never has anyone loved me so unconditionally, praised and spoiled me, but I deserve it. To find and fall in love and so fully embrace all it's joy feels a little selfish during this time, but it is our time, and one day I will see how much he got me through everything.

I am not sure when my weaknesses faded away and my strengths started to shine through, but let the sun shine in xo