I have come to the conclusion that I am very happy in my single status. Of course I would like something more, but until I find the something that takes my breath away I have decided not to settle. But with one little slip I feel right back where I always was. Even though I now know what I do and do not want, I still don't want anyone to have what I should not want. I know I have made the right choice, and have not made an idiot of myself, yet I feel small stirrings of something along the lines of jealousy. Jealousy over something that I don't not even want. Isn't that crazy? (No wonder men don't understand us) Even when I am feeling jealous or slightly angry my brain is telling me, "Tatum, you don't even want, nor deserve that." Maybe it's just the holidays, surrounded by couples, and families and engagements. None of which I want at this time or anywhere near ready for, maybe I am just anxious to get to that point. Start something special. Perhaps there still is some hopeless-ness floating around getting drudged up. OR maybe I just have way to much free time to think over the holidays, and when the New Year comes and I am crazy busy again this will fade.
Until Then,
The Hopeless Romantic xox
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