It seems the songs and quotes have even stopped speaking to me about you. I will save a photo or write down a song and when I go to post it I will stop because I am no longer feeling that way. How badly I wanted to be okay, and now that I am it feels bittersweet knowing there is no more looking back.

It's been a whirlwind, and I've kept myself busy as best I can. That was a challenge for someone who has grown so used to home, but I knew, if I let this heart break sink me I would have slipped into a depression. It would have been one that I would have taken a long time to bounce back. So I fought and struggled, and I managed to stay a float. It makes the tears, anxiety, feelings of desperation, worth it because I felt it all, and now I can walk away with my head high and my heart ready again. I am tired, but I am happy. My days are more filled with who I used to be more than ever, I feel like myself, like I found a long lost friend. I want to show her the best time, make the most of everything and be grateful.