Sometimes the heart needs more time to accept what the mind already knows

I always knew, I'm not the slightest bit dumb... Knew my heart didn't drum the way it should when someone is your world, but I thought it fluttered enough. What I didn't know what this flame I have, it won't burn out. I was always afraid to waste my love because I know how intense it burns when I give it away... So I waited 10 years in fear of my flame burning out on the wrong love. But here we are after a year, and I don't feel it was wasted. I am not burnt out, I do know it will just burn brighter when fueled by the right love.

People were right, there will be bad days ahead, for I cannot just simply forget. But there will days after that, and though this flame burned me, I can't wait to start another fire. I want these rain clouds to open up and cool these old flames and wounds. I want it to wash away the winter blues once and for all and to finally  enjoy the spring sunshine, my heart could use some warming. 

You turned my world upside down when you loved me, and again when you left. It's been strange finding my way again with these emotional ups and downs, but I'm almost there. The pieces fit a little different as I place them back together, but I suppose it is like something new... Like me without you.