2001 - Coming to an End

Here is the rest of 2001:

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New Distraction
I was so wrapped up in that daydream
The one of him and me
It was all I thought about
He was all I would see

But with you in perspective
Now I feel so free
I never though about you that way before
But when I am in your arms my mind soars

You make my past obsession seem like such a bore
All of this came about so soon
Now my heart is dancing to a whole new tune

I want to be with you
Like no one else before
And like no one else
You leave me wanting more

I don’t want to wait any longer
It’s a good time now that I am feeling stronger
Just place your lips on mine
And kiss so sweet and so kind

Forget about everyone else
And stay under our own love spell
Let’s stay like this until the sun doesn’t shine
Until you are no longer mine
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The Things you Do
I place my eyes upon your face
And feel myself falling from grace
I place my hand upon your cheek
And feel like you are a part of me

You wrap your arms around my waist
And take me to another place
Your deep gorgeous eyes stare into me
And fill my soul like a raging sea

You pull me close so your heart is beating with mine
I feel as if we are one and know that everything is fine
I taste your gentle kiss so sweet
And know that you do love me
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It doesn’t look that good anyways
I am trying to make my feelings for you go away
It doesn’t help that you wore my favorite shirt today
I always look for you in the hall
It’s just out of habit I guess
But each day it stops less and less

I'm going to get over this whole thing
And I am going to do it without the crying
I am going to find someone new
And I am going to get over you

I don’t really like how you look anymore
And doodling your name is kind of a bore
Your name in fact is crossed out of all my books
And when you walk by I don’t even take a second look

You are no longer the apple of my eye
And I don’t care when I see you and her walk by
I mean who cares if you wore my favorite shirt today
It doesn’t look that good anyway
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Save the best for last
I guess it is true that you don’t feel the same
You were just going along for the fun of the game
There is no point in getting excited when you talk to me
Those words have no meaning and there is nothing in me you see

Although I never really have told you how I felt
To tell you the truth you make my heart melt
For your sweet love I would pay any price
But I am sure you would say it is not for sale
And my heart would turn to ice

I didn’t want to see it before
But now it is time to face the truth
Although to you I am just another girl
All I want is to be with you

But I guess it is just to much too ask
So maybe I will just wait for you
And save the best for last
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I like…
I like how you always hold my hand
Or how you smile at me
I like when I look up and I am looking in your eyes
I like the way that it makes me suddenly shy

I like how I am happy now that I am with you
I like how I know that you feel the same way I do
I know that I will always have fun when I am with you
No matter what it is we do

When I look back on the days I smile
And there is a warm feeling that stays
I love thinking about you
It makes everything else fun to do

I love how you are my friend
And yet so much more
Everything now is so great and nothing is ever a bore

If it stayed like this forever
Every day would be worthy enough to treasure
So far every day with you has certainly been worthy
I can say that without a doubt
So, is this what love is all about?
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Over Dependent
I don’t know what I would do
If I couldn’t hold your hand
If I didn’t have you to stand beside
Then I wouldn’t stand

If I didn’t have your shoulder to lean on
I would fall down
If you ever let go
I would cry an ocean and drown

If I no longer had you to kiss away the pain
I would be hurting everyday
If I didn’t have your eyes to stare into mine
I would daze off into time or become blind

If I did not have you to dream of
I would be dreamless and without a love
If I didn’t love you to no measure
I would not have anything to treasure

If you didn’t give my heart wings
Then it wouldn’t have flown
And I would be alone
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Dear Darkness
When I am alone at night
The darkness overcomes my fright
It covers up what I don’t want to see
It relaxes my soul and makes me free

In the darkness I can cry
And no one can see my tear filled eyes
The look on my face always gives away my deepest thoughts
But in the darkness my face shall not show
And I can think all I want

The dark would not dare tell the secrets of my soul
For in the dark I am strong and bold
& at the same time I am a weeping willow
The silence of the dark allows me to find my peace of mind
It has no opinion and I find it kind

When in the light my dark stays in
Because the harsh rays of the light can expose personal things
Thing I don’t yet want to the world to know
Things that only belong to the darkness and me

Someday when I am ready
I will let the light shine through
Until then darkness it is just me and you
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Locked Doors
Behind that door
The one I locked
I want to open at every knock
But the last time I let someone in
I just had to lock that door again
For the one on the other side of that door
He broke my heart in two
He left me alone and didn’t care
That all he left me with was sorrow and despair
If I open this door to you
Do you promise not to leave me blue?
Do you promise to love me,
So tender and so sweet?
Do you promise you are the love,
The love I get to keep?
Or will I have to lock that door once more
And hide away and shame?
Nail up the boards and other things
To block out all the pain
Will I have to hide away
And keep my heart to myself?
Put your picture with the others
On my dark and dusty shelf
Or can I open that door wide
And let things shine through like love and pride
Take the locks and hinges off
And never see them again?
Tell me now
Have I found something that will never end?
I hope so
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Next Stop, 2002
The Hopeless Romantic x0x