Last of 2002

Well folks, here is the rest of 2002 as I have promised. This is where all the magic happened, my first love and then beginning of falling out of love. I remember reading a book called May your first love be your last. Of course when you fall in love all the time (I fell in love with a brand of wine the other day :P) then that is just impossible. But I think when you find THE ONE then it is a different kind of love. You know "can't-eat, can't-sleep, reach-for-the-stars, over- the-fence, world-series kind of stuff." (It Take Two) Then in that case, when you fall that hard, it's a special kind of love, so technically, it's the first love like that, and hopefully your last. At least that's how I like to picture it. Of course, I'm hopeless. Hopelessly single, hopelessly optimistic, naive and gullible. Ext. But then we wouldn't have this blog, these poems or the two readers. Looks like I am coming out of my funk. Thank goodness for Nicholas Sparks novels. Don't worry I went to the library today and took out a bunch, we are safe from the rants for while. Well instead of rambling lets get on with it already.
End of 2002!
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Dreams Come True
I dreamed of what I would say to you
If you were ever mine
I thought about the day you would kiss me
And thought it again time after time

The thought you your touch and the wish of your look
Had still been just a dream
Sometimes I still catch myself dreaming
And then remember you belong to me

Sometimes I feel like I am still dreaming
Because I never thought it could be
Now my dreams are so much better
There is so much more I see

Now when I feel your touch
Or when your eyes meet mine
I know that it is all real
And it is not a dream this time
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Defining Moments
Defining moments happen
And make things what they be
You are something that has happened
And you are something that defines me

I have been a different person
Since the moment our lips touched
I didn’t know I could love this way
Or care for someone so much

I have never been held before
Like the way you hold me close
I have never been kissed like this
Like the way you kiss me so

You make everything so perfect
It is as if you have magic at you fingertips
And magic in your kiss

When myself is defined
There is no regret or doubts
There is nothing but a lot of happiness
A lot of dreams and hopes
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Simple Things
It is all the simple things
That makes me feel this way
It is every simple thing you do
That makes my thoughts fly away

The simple meeting of our eyes
That simple look that could make me just die
The simple kiss upon my lips
Your simple arm around my hips

That simple smile across your face
It makes my simple heart race
The simple feeling of your touch
It turns simple feelings into so much

The simply wish that you will always be there
The simply hope that you will always care
All these simple things add up
To the wonderful thing we have that I love so much!
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Unspoken Words
There are so many words I cannot say
But that doesn’t mean they are not there
There are so many times I cannot express myself
But that doesn’t mean I do not care

There is not a minute I do not think of you
Whether it is night or day
Whenever you get up to leave
I wish that you could stay

Every time we are face to face
There is so much I wish I could say
But I decide to put it off
And before I know it all the time has slipped away

Sometimes I seem quiet
It is because I cannot seem to get the words out
Some days I will just get frustrated with myself
And I just get crabby and pout

On these days don’t worry
It is nothing you have done, you are fine
I just wish I has more courage
Right now I just need some time

Until I can say these words
Just hold me close and tight
Do not let go or lose faith in me
Because these words will come when the time is right
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A first I love you
Lying next to you
Looking into your eyes
I want to shout out these words
But I am so afraid and shy

Every kiss and every thought
This wonderful feeling of mine had built up
I cannot hold the words back any longer
I've held back long enough

I pull my lips away from yours
I let the words flow out
Shaking with nerves and uncertainty
Feeling my heart jump about

I never thought I could say these words
Never mind to your face
But there is something special that you do
And my heart just cannot control its pace

When you return my words
So many emotions wash over me
Holding back tears and shouts of joy
I just hold you and let the moment be

I have never been this happy before
And it is you that makes me feel this way
I hope you will always remember this
Because nothing has been more special than this day

Lying next to you
Never wanting to let go
Happy not saying a word
Because I finally let it all show
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Plus More
Discovering love was all I hoped it would be
Plus more

You are that plus more
Because you made my daydreams seem so dull
Because I never dreamed that I could have you
You are everything I ever wanted
Plus more

The plus more is that you loved me back
More than I could have ever imagined
I love you a million different ways
And for a million different reasons
Plus more
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Wondering
I am starting to Picture my life without you
And I seem to be okay
I wonder how to go about without you
And I see many ways

Yet when I am with you
You drive these thoughts away
They are forgotten at the touch of your hand
And when you are around forgotten they stay

Your hug squeezes the thoughts out
And your kisses drown them down
Your words wash them away
And I forget all the words I wanted to say

But when you leave my side
These thoughts return to me
I wonder how things would turn out
And I see myself free

I know that I would be left with a few wounds
But I also know that they would quickly heal
The only thing that is stopping me
Is wondering how you would deal
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