2005 - Even when I've had too much, I still feel your touch, Baby this just means that I'm not drunk enough

The title of this post is from: Not Drunk Enough - Adele (download it)
So back to the idea of can you possibly drink someone away. As I said yesterday I don't think so. I've tested my theories are here are the results.
Sure it's nice to go out with the girls and have some fun after someone breaks up with you, but the pain isn't any less in the morning, sometimes more severe with a hangover. Also, alcohol is a depressant, already down + a depressant = not a good idea.
I do realize it's very tempting, especially if you are a country music fan. I mean they are all about drinking whiskey and crying tears in your beer. But if you wear mascara you just will end up looking like a hot mess, and at the end of a straight tequila night you really are still alone. Those songs do make it sounds like a good idea, trust me, I've fallen in love with Jack Daniels many times. I did the whole country music & drinking one summer, it might work for awhile but in the end, whether you drink or not, it's just going to take time.
I never found the answer at the bottom and a bottle of red, and all this really ends up in is (a) a drunk dial/text/facebook message or (b) creeping ex boyfriends profile, which lets face it, is never healthy. Squinting and typing angry messages is hard work at 3am, and when you wake up it's almost as bad as those times when you roll over and see someone else. Or (c) you could have a run in and get physical. (So not worth it.) I had this friend once... just kidding!
So my conclusion is no, you can't drink someone away, there is no easy way out. Just takes time. Since the amount of poems each year is getting shorter I am going to put the lyrics to Not Drunk Enough as well. Just remember, it's never worth the ruining your mascara or drunk dialing.
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Not Drunk Enough - Adele Erichsen
Never been a girl who used to cry
Didn`t show emotions, don`t know why
Didn`t wanna feel the pain inside, I guess

But as the years keep going by,
you came along and changed my mind
I should leave the past behind me,
I should let you find me,
supposed to stay beside me
You were supposed to guide me,
through the ups and downs,
you were always gonna be around until the end

I still think we could
`cause you and me, we`re good
And I`ll tell you why this hurts, 'cause I`m sober


But I just wanna be drunk
so I can forget about you
and all the stupid things that love has put me through
Even when I've had too much,
I still feel your touch
Maybe this just means that I`m not drunk enough

So I`m gonna get myself another drink
whenever I start to think about you
`cause I do what I really don`t want to
but sometimes memories just come through

And when I get there,
to a place where I see you in a kitchen
I stop wishing but that thing and I don`t need you,
I don`t really wanna see you
and I don`t want you to see me,
you would think that I was crazy,
you might think that I wanna be close to you
but I`d rather wanna drink some Whiskey
and maybe have a little sip `o wine
`cause right now it`s the only thing that makes me forget you are mine
but right now I am sober

But I just wanna be drunk
so I can forget about you
and all the stupid things that love has put me through
Even when I've had too much,
I still feel your touch
Maybe this just means that I`m not drunk enough

I still think we could
(I`m not drunk enough)
`cause you and me, we`re good
`cause I`m sober

But I just wanna be drunk
so I can forget about you
and all the stupid things that love has put me through
Even when I've had too much,
I still feel your touch
Maybe this just means that I`m not drunk enough

(I still think we could)
But I just wanna be drunk
so I can forget about you
and all the stupid things that love has put me through
(`cause you and me we`re good)
Even when I've had too much,
I still feel your touch
Maybe this just means that I`m not drunk enough
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And here is 2005:
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This heart
This hearts been through a lot with you
But all along it always knew
It was safe in your care
And that it would always be loved there

And it’s love for you became so fond
That with your heart it made a bond
To love you true and love you strong
And it learned loving you is never wrong

And that heart told this girl
It loves you more than the whole wide world
It told her it would fight for you
And that this heart will always be true

This heart wants you to know
It will continue to cherish and grow
Your love feels so great and true
Because this heart wants nothing but you

So I give this heart to you
Keep it close in all you do
All it needs is your love and care
And this heart will promise to always be there
As well as the girl it belongs to
Because don’t forget… I love you
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By Loving You
I know that don’t love myself
It is a constant self fought war
But when I look inside myself
There is that hint of who I was before

And if I dig a little bit deeper
Into my heart and soul
It is there I find true happiness
For you came and filled that hole

You took me underneath your wing
When I become weak and small
I lost myself is all this madness
But yet you loved me through it all

You guided me alongside yourself
Until I was ready to fly
And for this I give you so much thanks
For I am not sure I could have made it by

But now I am on my way
To a brand new height so great
And deep inside I have almost found myself
And to get there I cannot wait

I know I owe this all to you
Despite all that I put you through
I couldn’t have accomplished all this alone
But only by loving you
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Only Me
I finally stopped looking for who I used to be
And accepted that there was a new me
I never realized all the great things I had
Until I got foolish and let it get bad

I never intended for this whirlwind of change
But it is time to see nothing was meant to stay the same
I don’t want to forget all the beauty we had
Or the tough stuff that drove us mad

I am ready to reveal all the discoveries I’ve made
As I let my old self begin to drift away
Maybe we were too absorbed to let our old memories fade

The sun will set as it may
And the sun will rise again
Giving us a brand new day
Let’s take the day and make it ours
Leaving all the pain, regret and tears behind

I am ready to face who I need to be
And know that I only need me
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Just a Fool
It will creep up like a morning frost
That glazed over appearance
It changed your perception
Makes you think perhaps all has to change
So you quickly, irrationally accept that change
But as the sun peeks over the horizon
The frost just as quickly disappears
You realize
Nothing has changed
It is all the same as before
You are just a fool who believed
Just a fool
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I would just like to point out that most of the poems from that year are horseshit. Don't ever let someone treat you bad and then feel like somehow it's your fault. Just because someone was worth at one time doesn't mean it will always be the case, you'll wast so much energy trying to make things the way they were. Make yourself happy, then worry about others.
As Always,
The Hopeless Romantic x0x