Well, I've been pretty busy. I haven't been avoiding this because I am out of poems, I swear. I am just adjusting to three jobs. I also didn't do a Valentine's blog, kind of hypocritical for a hopeless romantic. I was going to do all my favorite love songs and movie and books, but we can get to that another time. As a hopeless romantic I say everyday is Valentine's day, just less commercialized. Although I am still single for every one of these days. I do love the time leading up, I love filling and sending out Valentines, chocolates, the love movies on TV leading up to it. I don't even mind being alone, I just love all Holidays.
I learned the last couple of days that you certainly don't need romance to have love in your life. I don't know if I could love anyone as much as I love my family and friends. They say a friend is someone who knows all about you, and likes you anyways, so here is to all the people who have put up with my neurotic ways, which apparently I have had my entire life, as my mother informed me today I was a strange child. I say unique, call it what you will.
I've been on emotional overload the last couple of days. From the birth of a beautiful baby girl to the loss that someone I love had to deal with. I wanted to soak up all the joy and love this little one seems to make everyone feel and the next day I wanted to take away all my friends pain, absorb it in a hug so they didn't have to hurt anymore. It's hard seeing someone cry when usually you are the one crying and she is listening. You just want to say the right thing and show the right actions so they know that you love them so much and would do anything for them. It's these events that made me realize how much I love and care about the people in my life. By loving me and letting me do the same in return you guys are shaping me, helping me be the person I am becoming. I am better because I have you all in my life.
I feel like I have been going through a phase. With all my friends getting married, engaged, having kids I felt a little left out. There are a lot of conversations that I don't really get to be a part of or comment on. I felt left behind causing me to grab onto to anything if only for a second to feel a little love. Or to catch a buzz because I can, I am free with no one to answer too. It has it's pros and cons, lately the cons have been sticking out like a sore thumb, but I think this phase is coming to an end, thank goodness. I realize I have all the love I need right now. And when things are going good for those you love you are happy for them, and when things are going bad you just be what they need to be. As life goes on in it's cycles of joy and pain, love and loss I suppose all you can do is embrace and ride out the storm. Nothing worth it is easy, I've said this before but life isn't about learning to weather the storms, it's about learning to dance in the rain. So let it rain, eventually the sun will come out.
To my family and friends, for loving me no matter how I act <3
The Hopeless Romantic xox
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