2003 - Dance with me

Ok, so I said I would try and write more often. But it was a rough weekend :p So 2003, The year of first love, loosing it, and finding it again with someone else. I think those were the first two and last two major relationships. After that I wanted to make sure it was worth it, and trust me I've wasted a lot of time and energy making sure. Sometimes you come really close to thinking something might be worth your while. But then you really look and see maybe it's not. Maybe you ignore that gut feeling at first, because you want so badly for it to work. But in the end I figure, I have waited this long why settle now? Sometimes it hurts, or sometimes I just act like it does because I'm dramatic. So instead of settling, hot random sex is fine once in a while, just don't cuddle after. LoL, sorry I didn't get enough sleep last night. So let's just get started here.
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Promises
Days go by but you are still here
Every day that passes I overcome another fear
You wipe my mind clear and make room for you
I am no longer afraid to speak I am not afraid to be held close

For I cannot get enough of your arms and I just don’t want to let go
Every second is beautiful like every inch of you
Every word is memorable and I want to remember everything we do

You are the most wonderful person, my favorite in the world
If you ever stopped loving me I know time would stand still
But if it was up to me I would turn us into forever
Because no matter what becomes of you I will stop loving you never
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Completely Smitten
I have it all
Because I have your love
I sent my messages to the sky
And they sent you from above

I have tasted the sweetest of sweets
For I have tasted your kiss
Every chance to kiss you
Is a chance I must not miss

I have seen the beauties of heaven
From simply looking into your eyes
A simple glance my way
Makes me feel as if I could fly

I have felt the power of love
It sits in the palm of your hand
I will feel this power forever
Because I will hold on as long as I can

Every kiss, look and touch is more than enough
Because every kiss and touch is bursting with your love
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Special Place in my Heart
I see myself everyday when I look into your eyes
And when I see this part of me I do not feel the need to hide

I choose this side of me you see when I allowed you into my heart
I gave up a special space I had and let you fill that part

I knew I made the right choice from the second I let you in
And now that I am a part of you I am staying there until the end

I choose you because I saw myself when I looked into your eyes
I saw friendship, laughter, companionship and a love that will never die
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Perfect Fit
You have changed my life in so many ways
You have sometimes left me speechless so I have no words to say

You have stolen my heart and captured my soul
You have given me times of passion and given me a brand new world

Your eyes speak to me like words of no kind
Without movement of your lips I know that you are mine

I have opened my life to you and you became a part of me
We are like two pieces of a puzzle that happen to be a perfect fit
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Flower in the Sun
My love is like a flower growing in the sun
As each petal blossoms it tells me you are the one

Water travels through the steam like blood flows through my heart
I need you as much as blood or water for I hate it when we are apart

The flower withers in the clouds like my spirit when you are gone
I will brighten up soon enough for I know you will not be long

I know I will see you soon and the sun will shine again
Until then I will dream about us because I cannot get you out of me head
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The Sun is Shining Always
My love for you is like the sun
It warms and comforts and soothes
There may be cool long nights, but remember
The sun lights the moon

Sometimes clouds can block my rays
It seems like they have disappeared
But trust me always
It is still there

And sometime weather can seem unpredictable
Storms can set in and do damage
But in the end the sun come out
It will always be there & we'll manage
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Pages
My feelings are in pages
If you could watch these words in a movie this is what you would see

Tears
Laughter
Joy
Disappointment
Love, mostly lost and unrequited
More tears
True love

These pages are filled with dreams
Dreams of true love
I wished for it as long as I can remember

I found it
Now the pages stop
I suppose before him the pages were my true love
It is where I first created him

He is my pages
When I want to look back on everything since the pages stopped
I just look at him
Now I don’t need the pages to tell me what I want
Or what I have dreamed
Because I have it all

The pages haven’t really stopped
They are just beginning
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Never Knowing
I have these feeling for you but cannot express them out loud
There is a constant fear of rejection and I refuse to be anything but proud
I see you standing by her and cannot stand the sight
I feel too tired and lonely to even put up a fight

Things are not what I expected for the two of us to be
I imagined laughter, smiling and closeness but it is like you are not even here
I suppose it is suppose to be like this and I suppose I will let it go
Or I suppose I will try and tell you
No, I suppose I will never know
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Sad Loving
I feel my efforts are in vain
When it comes to loving you
Simply just talking to you
Has become difficult to do

Impossible is how I feel
When it comes to loving you
Stolen glances towards you
Is all I have the courage to do

Regret is how I feel
When it comes to loving you
I regret that I can not stop thinking about you
Because it is all I seem to do

I suppose it’s time to move on
I’ll leave my dreams behind
I’ll save them for another day
For a different place and time
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Days filled with the Sun
Life was feeling so alone
Downhill is where I was going
Tear-stained face and perma-frown
Everything was looking down

But now you are here
Hopefully to stay
My lonely nights have gone away

I was broken-hearted and torn
I felt to scarred and scorn
But now you hold me close to you
And slowly you are healing all my wounds

Back together piece by piece
As my life becomes more complete
I now have what I always needed
All my efforts have succeeded

Lonely nights are now behind me
With love filled day to come
No more teary nights alone
Just days filled with the sun
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Wow, I don't even remember what it was like to love so innocently, without question or doubt or suspicions. I wonder if I ever will be able to again. Sometimes I think Of course I will, I just have to meet the right person. Then I think of what I want and wonder if it is really possible. When I look around me at all the happy people I wonder if that is what they wanted in the beginning, or if you just meet someone and what you want changes. If you make sacrifices for something or someone because that's just what you do. I guess I'll just have to wait and see, as it happens though I am just so damn impatient. Oh well, until next (which is hopefully soon)
The Hopeless Romantic x0x