I think I have reached the point where there is nothing left to say. It is what it is. I was delivered a blow from the last person I expected it from. It caught me off guard, but you can't fight the current. If I've learned anything, it's to go with the flow with ease. If anything I feel a little foolish for falling for the first person I took a chance with in 10 years.. at least falling so hard. Was I fool to soak in all the dinners, flowers, day trips and more? An idiot for believing my patience had paid off? I really thought I was finally getting my Fairy Tale. Oh well....
Some people thrive off always being with someone, serial monogamists. That space in between relationships is too hard, like they cannot be alone. I think I may be the opposite, the last year of my life was so out of the norm for me, I am finally back to normal. How silly of me to want so much from the person who made it seem like we were heading somewhere. How foolish of me to give away all the love I had been saving. Now I know better, now I can get back to the one who loves me most... me. I need a bit more time, but as the days go on I already feel like it was before. I will mourn the last year, but make sure it doesn't break me, because I still have a lot of living to do.
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